Thursday 29 July 2010

Friends?

i am really shocked that how people can change from a decent schoolgirl to a selfish self-centered person who can just do anything to get whatever he/she wants. seriously, i dont need a friend like this. i do not hate you, but i just dont wanna be around with you dat much. You might say forgive with open hearts, minds or whatever shit thr is, but what is open heart when u trash other people again in public or to other friends? SERIOUSLY, WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?

who are you to judge other people? you are not God. hypocrite.

anyways, lets put this aside,

i love the days when i was in form five when i found some of my best friends but unfortunately it does not last cos when they have new friends, they eventually forgot about you. i suppose we're very immature at dat time.

i found my BFFs in form6. its a good thing that i transferred to King Edward school. i was first worried cos only like 4 or 5 people that i know from convent decided to be transfered from DB. but it was a great experience meeting new people from all different schools. it definitely opened up a whole new level of seeing things differently with so many different people. If i were to stick in DB, i think i will just know the few frens that i knew from Convent or maybe 1 or 2 new frens.

i feel like form 6 is a great way to built up the maturity of thinking in a person. cos i really start to see things differently, accepting who they are n what they are. some friends maybe be bad in some other things like eg. relationships. but they are still my best friends when we come together. we dont judge people that much. we accept who they are. well, unless they betrayed us or back-stabbed but it nvr happened tho.

we have so many things to talk about if we were having a small gathering or watsoever. but i were to be with my form5 classmates, i feel like i have nothing to talk about. even with my used-to-be best friends which now became my hi-howareyou-bye friends.

it is totally diferent with my friends in form6. when we c each other, we were like all so excited and cant wait to start the conversation like thr's so much to talk about. we go for trips together and we seriously enjoy ourselves very much. you know who you are ;)

college friends! haha. always plan benda x jadi jadi. =.=" but u guys are still my great friends! hahahahaha

Tuesday 27 July 2010

Lost my 4year-old cellphone

*sigh* i lost my cellphone today, while hanging at Starbucks. i searched everywhr for it but its gone. i was pretty frustrated n depressed cos

1. i bought dat phone with my OWN money
2. it is 4 years old (although it is not worth much nowadays, it has a great sentimental value to me)
3. i have over 400 contact numbers in my phone (not mentioning all the pictures)
im gonna have a hard time collectin them back

gosh! im so fucked up. it has been a bad year so far. i lost my two of the most important things

1. my purse - in January
2. my Phone - Today. EFF.
3. my PTPTN got rejected

probably i'll just use some cheap 60bucks phone for the time being. i dont even have a replacement phone rite now.
i might just fall apart anytime. and im going to be 'botak' soon. =.="
my hair keep falling off like crazy. maybe im just too stressed out or depressed.
nobody's gonna understand. so, i might as well keep it to myself then or i think im just gonna whine complain n write all this shit in my blog. lol

Above all, i still put my faith n trust in God that He has a plan for me and He will make my paths straight. =)

cheers~

Friday 2 July 2010

goodbye 1st year.

today's the last day of the short semester. time flies, yeah. i had four presentations and so many reports to finish but all went well. so, thank God. seriously. cos i tot i was gonna screw one badly but instead the marks were way wayyyy better than i expected.
For now, im pretty sure ive passed all my subjects based on my assgt marks so i'll just have to work hard for the finals hoping that i'll get an A or at least a B.

anyways, had the last lunch for this sem with Hwan, Phui Man, a-new-friend(cant remember her name. ps: i suck at names. so yeah), sushan, nisha, rubha, intan and rachel. it was fun. its been a long time since we had lunch with so many people. cos normally its just like 4 of us.

i cant believe im going into 2nd year next semester (and my PTPTN belum sampai!! WTF?!). i felt like i juz enrolled for my course like last month or sumthin. im still working on what to take for minor cos i flipped thru econs book in the library. looks kinda hard cos i thought of minoring in finance or sumthin so i can work as investor relations. but now i have second thoughts. no idea whether i can manage it or not.

i still cant believe its been a year. hahaha.
cant wait to finish my finals n go party n then get home! =)